It’s crazy for me to wrap my head around the fact that before the end of this year I am going to turn 20! What’s even wilder for me to imagine is that a quarter of my life has been spent as a quadriplegic.
Reflecting over the past almost five years, I’ve truly learned soo much about myself. I’ve learned just how fragile life is and how far emotionally, physically, and mentally I can be pushed and challenged.
I’ve learned to accept life for what it is, and I try to learn and grow from the constant lessons, life tends to throw my way.
One of the biggest life lessons I’ve learned is…
“Sometimes the most hurtful thing is the silence of friends, not the words of enemies”
I’ve had to grow apart from some of the closest people to me, and it has been a very painful experience. To go from hanging out, spending every waking hour and entrusting people with your darkest and most private secrets, to having absolutely no contact with them is frustrating and heartbreaking.
I, a few years ago, could not begin to picture my life without them.
Some people might wonder what happened between us. Up until recently, I often asked myself the same question.
Fortunately after many years and a great deal of growth, I’ve finally had closure and an understanding regarding those relationships.
During the most difficult times in my life, that’s when I needed my friends the most. Unfortunately some people in my life couldn’t step up to the plate. It’s not that they said anything ill towards me, or spread rumors behind my back, it’s their silence that killed our friendship.
Their disappearance, lack of support and lack of compassion was bewildering.When I did see them, it was as if I was staring at a stranger. I began to slowly recognize the distance in our relationship and it regrettably took me a long time to let them go. Don’t get me wrong I don’t expect the world from my friends, I just expected them to be what they should be, a friend.
Through that painful and long lesson, I’ve learned to value the friends I have in my life even more and I learned the hard way that “Sometimes the most hurtful thing is the silence of friends, not the words of enemies”
~Love Always, Taylor LN~